Welcome to my Canadian world

The summer is here! Oh it has been wonderful here in Copenhagen these past few weeks. I can’t believe I am going to Iceland in about a month….to the COLD! I don’t want to! Oh now I totally regret having taken that job in Iceland. Not to mention how much I am going to miss Klaus! Oh man…I don’t know how I ever thought I was going to be able to be away from Klaus all this time. I just hope he will be able to come for a visit.I’m in a constant struggle with myself. It’s not fun. Most of the time I feel like I should have picked something else than nursing to study. People tell me I am going to be a great nurse and I even if I am not trying at all I don’t do bad in school so I should take that as a sign that nursing is what I am meant to be doing but still I feel like there’s something missing…I don’t feel the passion. I mean I have talked to girls in school that sometimes are like “oh cancer that is so fascinating! I can’t wait to work as a nurse at a cancer ward” – I don’t know if it is because I have worked at a cancer ward for over a year but all I can think is: ”oh my God are you kidding me! It is horrible to have to look upon people dying from Cancer and not being able to really do anything about it!!”.
I mean the system doesn’t allow much human touch regarding nursing….to little staff, stress, unsatisfied patients AND nurses. Sometimes at the end of the day you feel so…well I don’t know what the right word is, but you feel like you could have done 100 things better or differently or you are sad about things you couldn’t do. Of course there are days in between where you feel really good when you come home and you really feel you did a difference or helped someone. Those are really good days and make me feel I would want to be a nurse. Too bad those days don’t happen that often….

Actually I am far from being the only one at school that is feeling like this. Actually none of the girls I am friends with in school are 100% sure in wanting to become nurses.  Few of them also know some girls that graduated and just went on to do other things. Who also wants to do this job after almost 4 years in school and then get this low pay???
I have to say that I am worried about my final practicum. The 4 places out of like 40 that I would actually have any interest being place at are also the most popular ones; ER’s and paediatric wards. So the chances of me getting a final practicum at a ward that I will not have any interest in are pretty high! So I am very worried about all that. I mean how hard will it be to study when you are not slightly interested in what you are doing….well actually I know how that is already!

Oh watching TV there are pictures of Danish farms in the TV. Danish farms….especially in Jutland (Jylland, Jótlandi…wow I know it in 3 languages! hehe) are beautiful! I wouldn’t mind being a farmer here in Denmark. I love animals, I love physical work and I love the nature….and the nature in Jutland is amazing! It reminds me of Canada except not as flat. I love being in Jutland (where Klaus’s parents live) cause it’s so nice to be out of the city. The city is too crowded. I need some space! haha I am a farm girl and I always will be. I want to hear the birds sing and the stillness…lying in the grass staring up into the sky….ahhhhhhh

I bought this whitening thing for clothes the other day; never again. I wanted to refresh the whiteness on some pants I had and some underwear and then Klaus had some t-shirts. Well Klaus and I did everything it said on the package and first the lace on my ALL WHITE underwear became bright pink….don’t know why it became pink  but oh well….it actually didn’t look that bad so I wasn’t that upset about that…nothing else happened. 
When I then rinsed it afterwards the bright pink turned to purple and then finally disappeared! I looked at all the other clothes and NOTHING had happened. They were just like they had been before we started. Just bought this very nice motorcycle outfit! Klaus’s parents took us over the boarders to Germany and to a store where I was able to get the outfit for WAY cheaper than I would have gotten it here in Denmark. Klaus is really happy about it and thinks it looks really good on me. Now he really wants to buy new ones and I think he’s really regretting not allowing me to give him this nice bikers jacket for his birthday.

The 26th of May my good friend Carlos is finally coming to Copenhagen! He is bringing his friend with him and I hope we will have a good time together!  Klaus and I migth have a party around the time that he is here so that is a good timing!

Oh and last but not least…. Klaus and I won a one week stay in Mallorca at this REALLY nice hotel! I really wish we could just go now but sadly that is not possible of course since we are both in school. June, July and August Klaus would be able to but I am not able to since I am working in Iceland! (again…why did I take that job!) September I might be able to go…depending on a lot of things and after that the weather isn’t that nice in Mallorca so we shouldn’t go after that. So if we are not able to go in the start of September we will have to wait until April or May next year when we have Easter break.

So now I am thinking….going to Africa for 2 weeks with the nursing school (in September) and seeing everything down there in nursing perspective which sounds really interesting to me!….OR…..save up money for a motorcycle!!
Going to Africa would be amazing and has been my dream for a very long time. I could see where I might be able to really do a difference in the future. But it is only 2 weeks and cost insanely lot of money = 15.000 DKR (Everything included though).
On the other hand….the bike I will be able to use for more than 2 weeks! I could go on trips….I would have the freedom to just drive anywhere!
Yeah….we’ll see…Klaus bought a new lap top also. Got it for a very nice price and is very happy about it. I am always trying to convince him to hook up our computers and play some Warcraft. I am still hoping that one of these days we will have time to do it

But now it’s time to go to bed. Until next time…take care ya all!